There have been times in the last few weeks that I've wanted to write, maybe even needed to write, but I couldn't do it here.  Because once I post this, it will move my posts about Grandma down to something in the past. I know. It sounds dumb.  It's not like I'll forget her or hurt any more or less than I already do if she's not the newest post.  But try explaining logistics to the heart....you just can't.

But it's been a month and a few days now since she passed away. I can't believe that. It seems like minutes and it seems like a year. I came across the birthday card she sent me a year or two ago, and seeing her handwriting was like a punch to the gut.  Knowing I'm not going to get a birthday card from her next week actually hurts a lot more than I care to think about....her cards full of good wishes and beautiful but hard to read penmanship was something I both appreciated and kind of took for granted. I hate how much more I appreciate things once they're taken away.  It's the little things like this that are the hardest.  It's the absence of the norm that throws me off.  But I saved a voice mail from two years ago when she called to wish me a happy birthday. I'll make sure to listen to that on Tuesday and even though I'll probably cry (I'm crying right now, lol), maybe it will be just what I need.  I miss her. I just miss her.

Okay, I didn't mean for this to be another Grandma-centric post.  Let's see, what else has been going on?

I'm enjoying the new bathroom ceiling Richard put in.  Our old one sort of caved in with no warning.  That was fun. I am still super impressed that he was able to assess the situation, do a little research, go get supplies, and boom. It was done.  I love being married to a jack of all trades. There's nothing he can't learn.

We have two gardens that are starting to produce. Peppers and zucchinis so far, with tomatoes looking pretty good.  Shouldn't be too much longer on those.  If you like zucchini, let me know, because we've got 6 plants (three different varieties), and I like zucchini, but that's an awful lot, you know?

We've been fishing a few times lately, and I've caught a few.  Being at Mirror Lake, then Pass Lake, was really good for me.  It's *almost* as good for me as the Pacific Ocean.  I'm so glad Richard loves being in nature as much as I do.  There's just something about it that soothes my soul in a way that nothing else can. Corny, maybe. But true.

Really not too much going on.  Just the day to day stuff.  But since that's the stuff that makes a life, maybe I should start documenting it better.  Like....I love how Richard and Josh and I watch "101 Ways to Leave a Game Show" and we're all laughing so hard I can't breathe.  Or how much I love it when my cat can tell I'm sad and he'll come snuggle me.  Or how much I look forward to 10:00, because that's usually when Richard and I go downstairs and watch an hour or two of LOST (or whatever show we're watching at the time), while he rubs my back.  I'm spoiled by the little things.  Thoughtful gestures, kind words, and making each other laugh.  That's the stuff worth remembering.